"Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity." What can we believe in? A.A. does not demand belief; Twelve Steps are only suggestions. Importance of an open mind. Variety of ways to faith. Substitution of A.A. as Higher Power. Plight of disillusioned. Roadblocks of indifference and prejudice. Lost faith found in A.A. Problems of intellectuality and self-sufficiency. Negative and positive thinking. Self-righteousness. Defiance is an outstanding characteristic of alcoholics. Step Two is a rallying point to sanity. Right relation to God. ~ Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions

Came to believe...

I had pushed God away. I knew the things I was doing were wrong. I was ashamed. How could God love me when I had done so much wrong.

When I came into AA. I was broken. I couldn't use God as my Higher Power (HP), so I used the tables. I used others as my HP until I could find my way back to God. And I did! It didn't happen overnight, but it did happen. I stumbled a bit, but my spiritual journey had begun and I didn't even know it. Once I became aware of things that I once was oblivious to, I could not un-know. I had to find the connection of my God and my spiritual self. Which I did, after some deep meditation and prayer. I knew that I wasn't able to restore my own sanity, but with the help of the tables and my God, I know that it is possible. I just needed to step out of the way and allow my HP to take over.